Resignation

There is truly no better arrangement of this world than the one I find myself in to confine you to the limits of a memory, a small space within all the things that could've been but never will be. Despite being truly hard not to be enamoured by this inebriated state of the senses, the choice has been made, so here are my farewells.

I will reserve a space in my soul for all the things you and I feel the same about, I will allow you to be the soulmate to that space forever. I will as well grant your innocent affection, the acceptance, the enjoyment. I will never negate your beauty, your beautiful struggles... Here, there will always be a friend, a confidant, a reflection.

But you won't be able to take anything with you. So when you leave, since you always leave, I will still be whole. You may visit this guest house I've created for you but, in the maze, you'll get lost and the beast won't be found. She'll crave for you, perhaps she even loves you in her way, but I choose peace for her days, her years.

This way, I will learn the meaning of the lesson. If I'm now mistaken, I trust it will be known, one day. But I won't bring this humble castle down, I've worked so hard to build it after so much pain. I won't see it crumble down to my feet, or yours, because of those breaths you take away from me when you look into my darkness.

Knowing that I'm capable of such depths is good enough for now. I wish you well and I hope you feel comfortable in that little corner of my heart.